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[Mar. 6th, 2008|12:07 am] |
So.
I expect this very well may be the last entry I make on this lj.
I've been tossing the idea around in my head for a bit, and I think I've decided to end this here. And start up a new journal with a different name.
I didn't understand why someone might do that and not just continue with the same journal, but now I get it. There's so many dead journals I'm friends with, the interests page is wayy outdated, and I just feel like I'm not the same person who started this journal four years ago.
I'd love for everyone to come with me to my new journal. It's been created for a while now, in fact, it was destined to be my writing journal before I gave up on that. For my own paranoid reasons, I won't openly state what it is (though depending on how well you know me, you may be able to guess...let's just say I'm not original when it comes to naming stuff).
So if you wanna keep up with my life, comment here and I'll add you there. And, just so you know, I totally want all of you to move to the new journal, but I don't want to force it upon any of you. I haven't commented anyone in AGES, but I read everything all the time. I'm hoping a new journal will inspire new habits.
So yeah, I'm making this way more melodramatic than it deserves. But come. I'll make cookies. (And then eat them all, since I have no way to send them to you =X) |
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[Mar. 4th, 2008|11:20 am] |
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| | "Boston and St. John's"--Great Big Sea | ] |
http://www.irish2000fest.com/entertainment/lineup.asp?page=1&mnuENT=1&page2=4&
OH MY GOD.
GAELIC STORM AND GREAT BIG SEA AT THE SAME FESTIVAL.
OH. MY. GOD.
I NEED TO GO TO THIS THING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
CAPSLOCK PWNS
Seriously though, two of my favorite bands that nobody knows in the SAME PLACE at the SAME TIME. AT AN IRISH FESTIVAL. I've always wanted to go to one of those (and not the half-ass ones I've danced at). It's about three hours from here. So by September, I have to find someone with a car who has the same taste in weirdass music that I've got.
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yeahthatsnotgonnahappen. =((((( I WANNA SEE GAELIC STORM, DAMNIT! They're doing a concert in a place that's ten miles from my sister's school. TEN MILES.
So if I'd gone to Purchase or stayed near the city, I could see them.
But, it gets more interesting. They're also doing a concert in POMONA (fgljersseo right near the college) and Pittsburgh, which is where Carnegie Mellon is. WHAT THE HELL, COLLEGE GODS? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME?!?!? |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2008|11:34 pm] |
Exactly one year ago today, I made this statement in my lj:
"Oh, and I got into Geneseo. So theoretically, if I get rejected from all other colleges, I'll be going to Geneseo."
Back when I was upon my private-school-bitch high horse. But, perhaps sensing what was to come, I added:
"They have this kickass mondo Science program. I'm happy."
And yes, this place has made me happier than I ever was at home. It's a matter of taking the average of my highs and lows, and figuring out how I am. And, right now, even though I'm kind of in a low point, I'm still glad to be here. And don't want to transfer anymore.
(though I doubt you knew I was considering it.) |
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| you were no angel, and i was no sin |
[Feb. 27th, 2008|11:07 am] |
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| | "Awake"--Josh Groban | ] |
I'm like a little kid a lot of the time. You know how little kids could have the most craptastic day ever, then one good thing happens, but that one good thing is what they remember?
So even though I got a 70 on a geo test, bombed the shit out of my math quiz, dropped my clean laundry in a puddle of melty snow, got snowed on, got more or less ambushed by four guys in an unfair snowball fight, endured an awkward dinner sitting next to the guy who wants in my pants, was scolded by my mother for doing "decent" in college, nearly started crying in front of someone, and didn't start my essay...it was a good day.
Unexpected hugs (from non-creepers) make me indescribably happy.
I have a serious crapload of work to do, but first it's survey time! Cause I haven't done one in a longass time.
Oh, and my hair's back to red, yayness! No more inch-long roots. Huzzah.
( yo mama ) |
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[Feb. 25th, 2008|02:55 pm] |
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| | "Black is the Color"--Gaelic Storm | ] |
How do I feel?
Kind of forgotten. Upset for no real reason other than every time I try to make peace with him, he throws everything to the floor and pushes me far away.
Lonely. Yeah, lonely works nicely.
And of course there's the ever present burning anger at myself, that gets stronger with every stupid thing I do.
...well, at least it'll keep me warm through the rest of winter.
Honestly though, and I know I've put this here countless times before, but if something about me is bothering you, then goddamn TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. I'm not a mindreader, and I absolutely suck at picking up on signals, so if you're angry with me for something I've said or done to you, let me know. So that the issue can be resolved and things can be sunshine and happiness once more. And I will do the same if you fucking let me. But if I've tried to talk to you and you've blown me off and pushed me away, I will get fed up and stop caring.
I don't like unresolved problems, but my life has become full of them. It pisses me off more than anything, honestly. |
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| let it be once more proclaimed... |
[Feb. 20th, 2008|12:45 am] |
I love juggling club! Seriously, everyone in it is so random and awesome.
And I'm getting betterish....yeah. It put me in such a better mood.
I seriously don't know why I'm still awke though, gah. Gahhhhh.
Someone's laughing like a squeaky toy. They're scaring me.
...yeah, I'mma do that whole sleep thing now. Word. |
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[Feb. 18th, 2008|12:53 am] |
Word. So last night was the final performance of Incorruptible, it went as well as all the other shows. Then there was the cast party afterwards. The crew was invited, and three of us went together because we're all freshies and didn't want to feel out of place. The girl whose house it was in lives in one of the townhouses, and ohmygod, I freakin want a townhouse. They're a-freakin-dorable. And bigger than I thought. So yeah, totally want one.
The party was a good time. Got drunk for the first time this semester. Which led to a really dumb move on my part. I think it's hilarious now, actually. Maybe I should care more about what a jackass I was, but I don't.
Honestly though, I really enjoy being single. It's just every once in a while I forget.
So, despite not falling asleep until around 4:50 AM, I found myself awake at freaking 9:30. Whatthehell. So I tried to go back to sleep, didn't work, then I showered, ate a healthy breakfast of twix, and at 12 headed on up to Brodie for strike. Which was more or less like light hanging in reverse, since I was helping "Mahk" (the crazy British lighting designer) take the lights down. "That's what she said" jokes came every three minutes. And they slowly morphed into "that's what your mom said." Good times.
I'm a hundred years behind on both work and sleep (dark circles under eyes are no good), and I just had a mountain dew so I won't be tired enough to sleep for another five hours or so. Haha, I'm smart. Ahhh. |
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[Feb. 12th, 2008|10:43 pm] |
I'm doing running crew for the vegSOUP, which is the student run play that goes up Thursday. The play's madddd funny. It's kind of boring though, cause there's no scene changes and the one time we need to move shit is after Act I. But it's a good place to do homework. The ASM was being snappish with us and one of the actors came over and apologized for her. It was nice of him, he's a very sweet guy.
But I missed juggling club because of rehearsal. Obviously. I saw Edd today in the union, and we hung out for a bit.
Oh, Ulysses got a package today, and he was telling me about it online, then he goes oh my god! I was like, what? He said, my mother sent me something besides ten pounds of candy. I was like, what? He said, I can't telll you I have to show you. So later on, he kicks on my door, I let him in, he gave me candy and then he pulled his pants down to show me the shiny red silk boxers his mom sent him. I was like, you're right, telling me over the internet wouldn't have had the same effect.
There's a broomball game at 1, and I think I'm going. Woohoo.
I keep buying shit from the vending machines when I miss dinner. Unhealthy, word. But yay for using flex! |
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| gahhhhh |
[Jan. 28th, 2008|10:05 pm] |
I MISS HIM
::facepalm:: |
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[Jan. 27th, 2008|05:30 am] |
Oh my god, these past few days have been CRAZY.
Tonight was probably one of the best nights I've ever had.
I'm so exhausted I can't even think anymore.
There is a lot to write about though.
But right now, I'm gonna crash in my bed. Literally crash. Ahh, tired.
Kay, morning. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|01:22 pm] |
I've been back in college since Sunday. I'm getting into it more and more each day. I missed fooling around with my idiot friends, and saying stuff to each other that we don't get offended by because we all know we're joking around.
My friend Christine, who's dating Matt, has a single, and Matt's roommate Zach always knocks on the door when they're in there together and yells "BONE ZONE!" And Dave still says the most random pervy shit, like Mae was telling a story about how some guy pissed her off, and Dave said, "Next time someone does that, you should poke them in the eye with your nipple." We all looked at him like ...? and then he was like, well the most offensive thing a guy can do to a guy is smack them in the face with his dick. He's hilarious, I love these people.
It was Sean's bday on move-back-in day, so we're going to have a celebration for him on sunday. Yay, birthdays!
All the Dragonforce songs sounds EXACTLY the same with some variation. They sound like remixed versions of themselves.
I just made up my calendar and color-coded all the essays that'll be due and tests I'll be having. It's a CRAPLOAD more work than last semester, my god.
I should be doing reading now, I'm gonna have a quiz on the stuff tomorrow. Blahhhh, I don't want to readddddd especially not about women's history!!! the words are mad tiny. and I'm just being complain-y I know. I'll do it, fine, gossssssh. |
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[Jan. 18th, 2008|10:17 pm] |
The day was spent...reading.
Then I bought my sister's birthday present as well as STARDUST for me. The movie. I wanna watch it with college people Monday night after American Gladiators.
After dinner, I watched two episodes of Lost.
I was supposed to go over one of my friend's house...but it's almost an hour both ways, and I wasn't in the mood. I feel bad about lying about why I couldn't go. But he's not that good a friend anyway and it'd've been weird.
Tomorrow's my sister's 21st birthday party. A lot of people are supposed to come over. Including one of my friends so I can spend my last day doing something fun instead of avoiding awkward conversation with relatives.
I love the commercial that's all:
"I have genital herpes"
"And I don't."
But I don't like the IO commercial with the mermaids and the rapping sea creature. And I do not know a single person who likes it.
This break has lasted TWO YEARS. And the next person who says to me, "Oh, the first semester went by so fast didn't it?" I'mma beat them downnnn. No it did not go fast. It took its proper amount of time. I really HATE when people say that.
I have strange pet peeves. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2008|07:15 pm] |
Lalala, been watching Kyle XY since I think 11 this afternoon. Marathon! And a new episode comes on in about forty five minutes. I'm excited.
That's how I've spent my day, though. Incredibly productive and something to be proud of, I know.
I need to do something crazy before going back to college. Like crazy fun.
My mind is eating itself. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2008|11:48 pm] |
I want to get a tattoo. I don't knowwhat I want it to be of, and I know I'm too chicken to get it, but I want it on my left shoulder blade. I don't know why, really. But I woke up and thought, man it'd be cool to get a tattoo on my left shoulder blade.
What else. Nothing noteworthy goes on. My second cousin and his wife came over for dinner. The whole day was spent preparing for the dinner. So...my day was pretty boring.
Oh, my sister wants to go to this play thing that one of her friends directed, and she wants me to go to the city and see it with her, but I don't feel like going anywhere, but she got my father to yell at me for not wanting to go. Like she does everything that I want to do with her. Cause she still gets anxiety about traveling places by herself. She has to get over it some time. Gahhh.
I am a guitar hero addict and I freely admit it.
With the amount of time I spend playing it, one would think I'd be better at it. Arghh.
In about one week I will be back at Geneseo! Excited, yesyes I am.
To see if I've changed? Haha.
I'm in a weird mood. My breasts hurt, wahhh. They feel bigger...I dunno. I've run out of things to talk about! I guess that's my cue to exit. |
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[Jan. 11th, 2008|10:28 pm] |
Wow. Guitar Hero more or less owns my soul.
I tried playing Through the Fire and Flames just for fun on expert. In practice. (I'm still having trouble with stuff on medium, man.) So, I managed to hit 980 notes...out of three thousand something. Twenty six percent. Not bad! Haha.
But thanks to Guitar Hero 1, I've got More Than A Feeling permanently stuck in my head.
Oh, I visited Murrow today. Nothing particularly exciting, went with Angela, Rita nad Tracy. There was some useless drama where the people at the front desk weren't gonna let us in. But that passed. Umm...oh, I found out that one of my friends is fucking up his life. Yeah, I gotta have a stern talking to with him.
Nothing else, I don't think. Ah, well.
I miss college! |
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[Jan. 6th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
Time and time again, I've proven that I will absolutely torment myself mentally over situations that have been long ago resolved.
Why do I continue to do this to myself? Will I ever learn? Ahh. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2008|09:56 pm] |
So I got my laptop yesterday and it's friggin BROKEN STILL. It bluescreened THREE TIMES within like five minutes. So I called the hp people and they were like, well, we'll try fixing it again, and if that doesn't work, then we'll send you a new one. I'm like, if it didn't work the first time, why would it work now? And they were like, we have to rty again before we can send you a new one.
So I might be getting a new one. Like the broken one was so old.
I JUST WANT A FRIGGIN COMPUTER, DAMN IT.
Kat came over today. We did a whole lot of nothing, and it was fair fun. Like old times. First time seeing her since I started college, worddd. We planned on going ice skating, but it was mind-numbingly cold today. And the house was toasty warm. Mmm.
Tomorrow, Ang is coming over to play guitar hero. Woo hoo. I'mma kick her asssss. Ha.
Umm. Yeah, so, that's it. Peaceee. |
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| oh, you know... |
[Jan. 1st, 2008|12:35 am] |
Happy New Year!!!
First person to text me in 2008: Davey.
First person to IM me in 2008: Ulysses.
Both male. Teehee.
Both college friends. Mmm.
Actually, my two closest guy friends from 'seo.
First person to call me in 2008: TBA.
Last year it was Jay. Called me at like five minutes after midnight. It was cute of him.
Sister's supposed to call, but we'll see when/if that happens.
I've been playing a shitload of guitar hero lately. I have 1-3, and I'm pretty obsessed. I still really suck, though, but I have fun and that's all that matters.
I feel nauseous for no real reason, blahh.
Honeymooners marathon on. Whee.
Again, happy new year, everyone. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2007|02:16 am] |
Merry Christmas everyone! I love Christmas, but I wasn't in to it this year, which sucks a little. But I got Guitar Hero 3!! (wanted 2, but I figured they'd get me the wrong one)
Um. My sister and her boyfriend were being weird toward each other during Christmas dinner, which made everyone else feel pretty awkward.
I dunno. That's it, really, isn't it. I'm so tired right now, and I guess that means Ishould go to bed now. Mmmkay. |
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